A sludgy thing, thickened with reiterated quotation, choked with the rubble of the overheard, the strenuously sifted and hoarded, the periodically dusted down then crammed with slogans and jingles, with mutterings of remembered accusations…3
The inner voice that emerged in the process of recording Lullaby for Marbles strongly resonates with this description, coming through as a hybrid form of amalgamated fragments of what I thought Marbles wanted to hear, interwoven with cynicisms towards this desire. The arrival of this inner voice seemed to suggest that I was no longer solely addressing Marbles, but was, in fact, now talking to myself to a certain degree: a conflicted soothing exercise made strange by the realisation that instead of attempting to settle Marbles, I was actually seeking to calm myself by talking through Marbles. This hybrid multi-vocal exchange that began to take place can be characterised by the resultant vocal delivery on the final recording, whereby the voice is reluctant to earnestly enunciate the likes, but unwilling to completely abandon the attempt to calm: the words end up as a stream of muted mumbling. It is as though I can not quite bring myself to announce with conviction what I want to hear, but will not abandon the activity either. This indecisiveness resonates with the uniqueness Goldblatt finds in the work in progress, insisting that this part of artistic practice is especially conducive to a self-ventriloquised exchange. Goldblatt suggests that the inevitable indecision and uncertainties that guide a work’s evolution when in progress mark out a process that cannot be considered:
Simply expression or monolithic intention, [but] often a set of fragmentary stops and starts, numerous intentional acts mingled with accidents, some only barely related to the finished work by the time the work stops.4The work in progress might be considered as governed by conditions of uncertainty that in turn create favourable conditions for the fractured, unfixed inner voice to flourish. What the work in progress creates, and what I think occurred in recording Lullaby for Marbles, is a haphazard, fractured setting that seems to encourage willingness for the odd inner voice to come out. As a fragmentary stage of stops and starts in a work’s creation, the work in progress’s evolving, deforming and morphing conditions allow the inner voice to more easily seep out, become present, and talk with me. In reflecting on the nature of the inner voice, how it arises during the work in progress, and how it facilitates a self-ventriloquised exchange, I want to conclude by considering where this voice ends up: if it is outside me, and moving through Marbles, then where is it? The inner voice has been captured via the recording, but this is simply a document, rather than the site where it took shape. To discuss the physicality of the inner voice is perhaps redundant though, as it is formless with no definite body. It requires this amorphous state to be able to move from me, through Marbles, and land outside and beside myself, so as to be able to participate in the self-ventriloquised exchange I have outlined above. If it is the work in progress that summons the inner voice out, then I think it is the action of recording and processing it that creates its presence, and which gives it potentiality to talk with myself. Understanding where it is then becomes about understanding how it has been transformed, and how these transformations — such as the layering, stretching, modulation, and techniques of obscuring the voice that occurred in the making of Lullaby for Marbles — echo the disunity and scattered nature of the inner voice. In discussing voice, body, audio technology and the production of subjectivity, N. Katherine Hayles argues for a reconsideration of the body due to the advent of audio recording technology. Hayles notes historical notions of the link between the body and voice in terms of presence, and suggests that with transformation of the voice through recording and editing, the body too undergoes similar alterations. The importance for Hayles is the role audio technology plays in altering the inherent bind between voice and body by creating ‘the realization that the body and voice no longer go together. Voice can persist through time outside the body, confronting the subject as an externalised other.’5 If the altered voice captured in Lullaby for Marbles — the externalised mumbler that confronts me — formed through audio processing that mutates and merges this voice with other sounds, then perhaps similar effects resonate with my own body through the self-ventriloquised dialogue I exchange with this other mumbling me? Hayles uses the metaphor of the body-as-tape-recorder to describe this process, and it is with the substitute technological body employed in Lullaby for Marbles that the production of the conflicted muffled other occurs, which in turn affects me.6 Somewhere in this discordant attempt to soothe a cat, the other me that gains a voice does not speak for me or against me, but rather, with me: recognisable but strange, shadowy and outside yet immanent, mangled but meaningful. This uncanny other voice lays in wait sonically slumped beside me like an inert ventriloquist’s dummy, ready to talk. All I need to do is just say the words.
1. David Goldblatt, Art and Ventriloquism, Routledge, London, 2006, p. 33.
2. Ibid., p. 39.
3. Denise Riley, The Force of Language, Palgrave Macmillan, Gordonsville, 2004, p. 20.
4. Goldblatt, p. 46.
5. N. Katherine Hayles, ‘Voices Out of Bodies, Bodies Out of Voices: Audiotape and the Production of Subjectivity’, in Adelaide Morris (ed.) Sound States: Innovative Poetics and Acoustical Technologies. The University of North Carolina Press, Chapel Hill, 1997, pp. 78.[^6]: Ibid., p. 78